random thoughts

university friends

so I read my sister’s post of her closest friends and I decided to write my own. I am gonna write about my closest univ friends. here goes..

Qorry

Cerita awal pertemuan kita lucu deh kalo diinget2. jadi waktu itu pas jamannya ospek departmen/fakultas. malem2 di bara sama2 lg ngantri mau cetak foto gitu utk tugas ospek. udah maleeeeem bgt dan tinggal kita berdua yg ngantri. kita berdua sama2 diem (iyalah kan ga kenal! ga tau juga kalo sama2 anak Ilmu Ekonomi). trus tiba2 HP nya Qorry bunyi. dia kedengeran kesel dan ga enak gitu krn Papahnya ternyata udah nungguin. trus tiba2 Qorry matanya berair gitu kaya yg mau nangis hahah akhirnya gw ajak ngomong dan disitu kita kenalan deh terus karena senasib-sepenanggungan (sama2 tinggal di bogor, ga punya kosan, blom punya temen), we became inseperable. kmn2 bareng teruuus :)

Qorry itu temen gw yg paling pinter dan rajin. lulusan terbaik seangkatan, men! keren kan?! :D ampe sekarang masi suka ngobrol dan kalo ada apa2 yg pengen diceritain kita suka email2an.

Ayu

Ayu itu bisa dibilang yg paling gaul diantara kita hahaha! dia cantiiik jd banyak yg ngedeketin gitu padahal dia preman :p tp cowonya serem bgt hahah lebih preman lg. tp bisa dibilang gw paling deket sampe sekarang sama Ayu. kalo ada apa2 gw pasti chat/email dia. Ayu itu agak galak tp bagus sih krn gw (terlebih lg temen gw yg bernama Pipit, which I will write about later) kadang emg harus digalakin hahah

Ayu itu tipe2 yg baiiik krn mencoba utk ngerti posisi org. trus bisa dibilang jalan pikir gw sama dia itu paling mirip. makanya gw sering tuker pikiran ama dia.

pas udah lulus gw sama Ayu malah makin deket krn kita sama2 ikutan proyek fakultas bareng. jd hampir tiap hari bareng gtu deh. dari ketawa ampe nangis ampe tidur bareng. seru bgt kalo diinget2 :)

Pipit

Pipit is the most slow in our group :p dia lemoooot jadi suka lucu! tp dia pinter. terutama akuntansi. paling jago dia. dlu kita semua minta diajarin ke dia hahaha aneh bgt deh utk kehidupan sehari2 dia ga teliti tp giliran ngitung angka2 duit di akuntansi jadi jago -___-“

Pipit itu bisa dibilang juga paling perasa. sangaaaaaaaaaaat mengikuti perasaanyya ampe kadang2 kita2 pd protes krn walaupun ngikutin perasaan otak juga harus digunakan dgn sebaik mungkin. tp Pipit itu polos dan tulus bgt :) she knows what she’s doing even when all of us doubted her and told her to stop. daaaan skrg dia udah nikah and she’s happy with her husband :) so i guess her methods work hahah

kenangan paling lucu sama Pipit itu pas dia ngebakar tong sampah hahah kita lagi pada buru2 mau ngasi surprise utk Marsel yg ultah, trus tiba2 Pipit ngilang. eh ternyata dia ketinggalan di belakang sedang heboh mencoba memadamkan api yg membara dari tong sampah kamarnya yg sudah mulai meleleh (tong sampahnya terbuat dr plastik). dan dia ga ngomong apa2. sibuk sendiri gitu. hahahah kocak bgt.

trus dia dulu ga bgt deh dandannya. foto KTM dia aja lucu bgt kaya penjaga perpus atau nike ardilla jaman dulu hahahah tp skrg dia sudah jauh lebih pinter dandan dan jadi maniiis bgt :)

Marsel

Marsel itu yg paling tomboy! waktu masi kuliah, dia sukanya pake baju2 cowok. gatau deh kenapa. eh sekarang Marsel jd cewek bgt hahah jd jago dandan :p dan selalu pake heels (krn kerja di bank). hahah perubahan yg sangat signifikan!

tp Marsel itu kreatiiiiiif bgt! seriusan deh. kan kalo kuliah ga boleh pake kaos ya, jd dia memutuskan utk bikin kerah palsu gitu hahah! cuma kerah doang yg bisa dipake utk menipu dosen biar dikira lg pake polo shirt :p

selain itu, Marsel termasuk yg agak tertutup tp sangat positif. dia pernah bikin dream book yg keren bgt! dan skrg juga dia suka nulis2 gt. gw pernah baca tulisannya, keren sih :)

*gw ga berhasil menemukan foto Marsel lg sendiri. dia memang susah difoto. heumm.

Kak Renny

Kak Renny itu kakak kelas kita yg entah dr kapan deket sama kita. gw juga lupa sih. tp kalo ga salah dr pas jd panitia hipotexR dlu. Kak Renny itu baiiiiiiiik bgt. seriusan deh. beneran kakak yg mengayomi dan melindungi adik2nya :)

Kak Renny itu kalo dalam kepanitiaan selalu jadi seksi acara. jadi ya, you can guess, kalo kita pergi main itu Kak Renny yg ngatur acaranya heheh tp selalu seru! paling seru menurut gw adalah pas kita piknik ke kebun raya. itu seruuuuuuu bgt kita makan2, main bola, ngelukis, bikin kaos yg dicoret2 gitu. pokonya seru bgt deh! mana waktu itu abis stress ujian metode statistik pula heheh

dan yg ngatur acaranya semua itu Kak Renny! hebat bgt kan?! bersyukur bgt bisa kenal deket :) mana gw sering bgt lg ngerepotin Kak Renny hehehe maaf ya kak :p

skrg kak Renny udh nikah dan punya anak. jadi yaaaa udh beda dunia -___-“

pengen bisa cerita2 lg kaya dlu tp kayanya udah gak bisa lagi :(

anyway, they were my best friends during my university years :)

we went through a lot together.

love and miss them a lot :(

one year scribbled thoughts

it’s been a while since my last post, i know. a lot of things had happened.

my one-year course of Japanese is over. i can’t believe how fast it feels. i mean, when I was doing it, I wanted to graduate real quick, but after I had finished the final test, and had dinner with my sensei and class mates, on the train home i wondered what a year it had been for me. what I have done, what I haven’t done, what I should’ve done, those kind of thoughts just swept over me, like a tidal wave. i guess that’s how they say it.

anyway, winter is almost over. and yes, it was (and still kinda) lonely. just like in those sad love songs about loneliness. to be honest, i kinda felt that way every once in a while. cheesy huh? but, all is good now i guess.

i have made a few friends here, and meeting new people with different characteristics has always interested me. but here i met really strange (not in a harsh way, just in a never-known-before way) characters! there is this friend of mine who is easy going and fun, and kinda reminds me of my mom sometimes lol :p and there’s this other one who likes to over-think stuff, i think it has something to do with hating being idle, but i feel comfortable with this person and we’re good friends :). there’s also another one, whom i considered as a good friend for a while, but then left me feeling a bit betrayed. cause people’s view is so important to him (yes, it’s a guy). whatever. i got reminded about my question on the forgiving and forgetting thing again (which i have written before here!). cause i’m still trying to get past it.

however, i feel comfortable right now. with the surroundings that i’m quite familiar with. all the faces and conversations and laughs. it kinda makes me sad to know that the time we have left is only very little.

it’s funny what a couple of months can mean eh? one moment you’re complaining about the situation you’re in, the next moment you find yourself trying to hold on to it. but i guess that’s just how it goes.

02/07/2011 doodle

it’s been a long time since I posted on tumblr. the main reason is because I have been busy. EXTREMELY busy!

during my 16 years of study, from primary school all the way to getting my bachelors’ degree, never have I studied as hard as I do now! crazy huh? and I’m not even studying what I came here to study for, economics. I am still in Japanese school and I’m beginning to see that they do everything here wholeheartedly. And they demand us foreigners to do so too.

teachers will give us tons of homework and tests, EVERY SINGLE DAY. and if we fail the test, we have to retake it. and for the small tests which we have everyday, if we answered a question wrongly, we must rewrite the correct answer five times. yes, FIVE TIMES! so even though school finishes at 4:15, we usually get outta class at around 5 :(

and when I reach home, for some reason, I usually review the lessons I learned in class. Never before have I done such a thing. Not even while I was studying my favorite subjects during my undergraduate study.

I guess that’s just one of the few good (but very tiring) things I’ve learned here..

Even though I know it’s for my own good, things can be a bit stressful at times. And now is one of those times. Maybe this is because I’m still trying to fit in and get used to the way things are around here, but I can’t help but feel a bit lonely at times. I miss how things were back home.. I miss having people behind me when I feel like I need someone to rely on. I miss kodok :(

However, I chose to came here so I guess I should not whine too much and get my lazy ass to work. My brain’s getting all rusty and there’s the entrance test and everything I should get prepared for. and the ooki tesuto (Japanese school test) too. Sounds a bit overwhelming, eh? It is, but I will do my best, I swear.

wish me luck.

Hopes and Fears

It’s a quarter past 8 in the evening already. Local time, Yokohama, Japan.

Today is the 9th day I’m alone here. In my small (but comfy) room in ANA’s dormitory. And I feel okay :)

The last few days before leaving my hometown were the hardest few days of my life so far. In my mind, I was gonna be miserable and lonely, no family, no friends, no one to count on. That thought made me cry for days before my departure. But to my surprise I didn’t cry when I got here. At least not until the third night.. But that was only for one night so it doesn’t really count :p

Anyway, I must say that everything is different here. It’s crazy cold. And I caught people looking at me a couple of times. Maybe they find the jilbab weird. Whatever. But everything is not as bad as I thought they were gonna be. They’re kinda good actually. The trains come on time. No traffic chaos. No people pushing in line. No smelly toilets in public places.. Yeah, I’m pretty happy :)

To me this is one of the few experiences in life which teaches me that almost everything is a state of mind. You are what you think and sometimes your mind plays tricks on you. They fool you. You might be really really scared of something, but when it actually happens, it’s not that bad. I think that’s exactly why we all should have positive thoughts. I mean, if I knew that it will be ok here, I wouldn’t have wasted the last few nights at home crying and causing my eyes to look like raccoons’. It IS lonely here, and confusing, and all those other stuff I thought of before, but it’s not as sad as I thought it would be.

Well I guess that’s life. There are many surprises in it but it is always better to think and hope for the best, but still be prepared for the worst. Not the other way around. Too much fear is never good!

And we are never alone, right? There is always God. I can’t imagine how atheists feel when they get lonely..

I never knew I could miss this much.. 

So much, it hurts :(